Yeah, that's pretty straightforward. I had my first exam this week, you see, in Psych. I'd heard that you get to leave after exams, but I wasn't sure if it was true. But it was. And I was the first one to finish. So I had over an extra half hour of time to chill out! Yay!
I've mentioned before the dangers and benefits of being around your peers all the day long. Conformity is a powerful force, my friends. And as I've said, sometimes it's good (getting rid of bad habits, Rule #12). Sometimes, it's not (getting new bad habits, Rule #13). Here, we're talking about full-out personality conformity.
Don't do it.
I'm serious. It's a horrible thing to do.
Okay, what I've discovered is that (as if this wasn't already explicitly clear) I'm really different from most people. Most people love sports, and actually know about how they work, and who plays in them. Most people actually do play sports. Most people party, instead of sitting in their room reading or writing or listening to music, or getting some actual sleep. Most people are not disabled; most people are not as religious as I am, most people do not have emotional issues (hahaha). But you know what?
I don't have to conform, and I won't. Partially because I can't, but also because in the end, that's not gonna make me happy. What makes me happy is sitting in my room reading books and listening to music. Or sitting to the side watching everyone else be crazy and laughing to myself because in my eyes, that's weird. Or singing at the top of my lungs, even though it annoys people.
Everyone's got something different about them. Sometimes, it may be a lot of things, like with me. But you have the right to do what makes you sincerely happy, and to be yourself.
Otherwise, the happy little room that you were so excited about goes bye-bye. Because Housing sticks someone else in it. And then you have to find a new room, without your friend, somewhere not half as cool. And it takes forever. And then you are still stuck in your old room five days later.
Yeah, it's pretty clear at this point that I stink at making new friends. You all know that slowly, I've been making a couple friends, here and there... but I've never really found a group, like, a place where I felt like I belonged and wasn't totally weird/grossed out by everyone else.
Yeah, well, guess what? It happened finally. This week, I was invited to this music jam thingamajiger (professional English vocabulary) and I went, and I found FRIENDS. Like, real friends. Too bad for them, really, because now I'm going to cling to them like an octopus. I love these guys. They make me feel happy, like, really happy, for the first time since I got here. Because they're nice and generally clean-cut, most of them are into music, or are similar to me in some other way, and we just clicked.
It makes me so happy it's not even funny.
Moral of the story is that they will be there, those people who are like you. You just have to be patient, and open, and not afraid to go to some of the events that are up your alley.
Drama. Drama, drama, drama, drama, DRA-A-MA. Whether it's external or mental (which is pretty much how I do everything, haha), this is what you tell that drama.
I'm going to keep calm and carry on. So there, drama.
Here's another fact about college: it's not just about the academics, or about settling into your path in the world. It's also about having fun. Now, once again, I'm begging you, don't abandon your morals! That's not what this is about. Don't change who you are, don't do things you're not comfortable with.
Do go out and do the things you might conceivably do were you not afraid or inexperienced. Like learning to improvise music when you're a classically trained cellist. Or doing some casual performances. Or chilling with people maybe a little later than you're used to (as long as you're not making yourself sick, Kira!). Or going to a softball game because some of your friends are in it.
That's what it's all about. Taking opportunities. Branching out. Having fun. As long as you're always true to yourself, there's a lot you can do in the world.
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