Now that I'm off school (besides one religion class I'm taking online), I've got some time to actually work on my writing. A lot of this time is taken up by family and recently I've been working to fill up my blog post queue on here, but as of this week I should be writing again. So I've been doing a lot of prep work, trying to figure out where to go from here.
It's hard sometimes. I've been writing novels since I was about nine, finished my first when I was eleven, and started sending out at age twelve--and here I am, still doing the same thing. The industry moves at an incredibly slow pace, but the trends move so quickly it's hard to keep up.
For me, the biggest struggle is knowing which book to send out when. I've written eighteen novels so far, with about half of those still in my queue to edit and send out. I'm in process of writing two more books, with a few other ideas waiting. With all of those options, I get really nervous about which one I have the best chance with. Every time I start sending a book out I find myself thinking, "What if I sent out a different one? Would that work better? What if I'm missing my chance right now by sending this book out instead of another one?"
It's a poisonous thought chain, really, but it does matter. It takes luck to succeed in the industry, on top of talent and hard work. It makes you wonder what more you can do to get that kind of luck.
Besides that worry, I've recently been going through my editing queue again deciding which to keep and which to throw out, a process I talked about in this post. At the time of that post, I'd just trunked THE PROPHECY KEEPER, for reasons detailed within. But a few weeks ago, I woke up thinking about all the good and original things that book had, and I realized I want to keep it after all. It'll take some extensive edits to salvage that story, but I'm not willing to let those good things go.
Then last week, I came to the conclusion that the CHOSEN FOUR series is no longer viable either. That choice wasn't quite so hard as trunking THE PSYCHIC STORY, but it's still difficult. Both of those stories were instrumental to my development as a writer, and they were both books that garnered me tons of "fans." Furthermore, the CHOSEN FOUR series was the first series I ever wrote, which was a big step for me. I put a ton of work into them. I've never researched so extensively before. But I have to throw those books out because they're too clumsy, based off of premises that don't realistically stand up, and too dependent on lacking details that I've tried to ignore for the bigger picture, as I often do. Details are my weakness, and they really bring this series down.
Managing a career in any art industry takes a lot of stamina. I don't know for sure where to go from here. I do know that I'll be finishing SAMMI this week. After that, I need to select a book to editing again in the hopes of sending out. I'm completely unsure which one that will be. I guess I'll come to it in the moment.
Does anyone have any advice on this stuff? (Also, to my CPs, if you'd like to weigh in with any thoughts on which book would be best at this point, I'd love to hear from you. Email me or whatever!)
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