I've seen this idea around a lot, so I'm gonna try it. Let's see if I can list 25 things about me I haven't already told you on this blog. I feel like this is going to be splendidly difficult, given how remarkably uninhibited I am about talking about myself on here, but maybe it'll turn out really fun!
1) I don't like baby carrots but I do like the big, out of the garden ones, and even carrot sticks if I'm feeling the mood. I just don't get along with the baby form. They're too... fake, and little.
2) I plan to adopt once I get married rather than birth children, mostly because of my situation with the fibromyalgia, but also because it's a good thing to do. If extremely difficult.
3) I suffer from a condition called body dysmorphic disorder. My case has become mild enough, with the help of fibro meds and a lot of effort, that I can almost say I'm over it. I've had it since about fifth grade, and mine centers on my face, my skin, mostly. I won't go into details because it's nasty stuff, but you can look it up if you're interested. *For more information, read this post.*
4) I used to think I could actually read minds, hence a number of my book ideas. It turns out I just have a very gifted empathy, which is pretty darn close anyway. I'm almost a legit empath.
5) When I was in fourth grade, I had a phobia of bees. It all started at a Girl Scout Camp, where Attack of the Killer Bees commenced. I suffered for nearly five months after that from a severe case of melissophobia, to which I hope to never ever return, because no one should ever have to live in that state of constant panic. Ever. *For more information, read this post*
6) I'm addicted to carbs. It's actually a symptom of fibromyalgia, but I didn't know that until after I got diagnosed. Before that, I spent years eating a pint or more of ice cream every day after school.
7) I developed additional body image issues regarding my weight in middle school. I mean, I already had BDD, as mentioned above, and it really didn't help when a boy in my freshman history class found it necessary to tell me I was so fat and ugly I should never come to school and make him look at me.
8) I switched college majors a few times. My Algebra 2 teacher told our class this would happen to all of us. I didn't believe him, because of course I've been set on Creative Writing as a career and my major for years and years. It turned out he was right, but not because I changed my mind on Creative Writing. No, see, originally, I was going to minor in Psychology, because I have an interest in that. Then I had an awesome All State experience, and decided to minor in Music. When I auditioned for the minor, they asked me to become a major. So I decided to double major in Creative Writing and Music. That was fine and dandy up until right before college started, when I panicked because of the Music requirements, and switched back to a minor. A few months later, I realized I did love the Music department, and now I'm a double major. Again.
9) Another food I don't like is cooked tomatoes. I can't stand them. Not in my sauce, not in my casseroles, in salads, whatever. I want my tomatoes raw, thank you very much.
10) I don't like video games very much.This is probably due to my autistic brother, who is obsessed with them. Given the multitude of stressful situations caused by this, I've learned to avoid them. Except occasionally for family fun time, and even then, I only play Mario stuff, party games, Lego stuff, or Harry Potter games.
11) I was once accepted by a literary agent. She worked with me on my novel, edited the first two chapters, and then stopped e-mailing me entirely. I was left in the lurch, back to square one, which is where I am now. Yippee.
12) I'm a Mormon (aka a member of the LDS church). Have I ever mentioned that? I don't think so.
13) Not only do I draw images for my novels to keep my creative juices flowing, but I also imagine movie trailers for my books. I pick out songs, and use them to construct the movie trailer for my own books around. It's the coolest thing ever. I hope someday my books do become movies, so I can see how the actual product turns out.
14) My biggest weakness is jealousy. I get jealous really easily, due to some self-confidence issues I've been working out for years. I'll get jealous over guys, over writing skill, over social status, over musical skill, all sorts of stuff. I'm generally a really nice person, so if I'm not being totally nice to you, it's probably because I'm jealous, and it makes me want to hate your guts. Feel complimented, I guess?
15) I don't know how to be violent. Or angry, honestly. I hate conflict, and I hate those crunchy nasty feelings. It's really hard sometimes, because I'll want to be angry, or want to hit someone, and I can't do it.
16) The only celebrity crush I've ever had is on Josh Hutcherson, and that may or may not be mostly because of him playing Peeta. I mean, I adore him as a person and an actor (he's so funny and gifted), but he's very like Peeta in real life, so that's a lot of the reason why.
17) Speaking of crushes, I've almost consistently had crushes since kindergarten. I could list them off, but it would take a while. During elementary school, I was pretty flighty with my crushes. From 6th grade on, though, my crushes were more long-lasting, years of devotion to one guy in particular.
18) I used to love to do crafty things in elementary school. I knitted, cross-stitched, sold stuff at craft fairs, and even made a club around it. Now, if you asked me to do anything like that, I'd probably beat you up. Except not really.
19) I also hate practical stuff. I don't live in this world the rest of you people live in. Money and taxes and health care and real jobs make me sick. I haven't had to deal with most of this yet, but I really truly feel that if I'm forced into it, I will become severely depressed. I am at peace only when I'm a) hanging out with friends, b) doing something musical, c) watching TV/reading, or d) writing! I need my art. Without it, I don't know who I am.
20) I have an above-average IQ. I know this because I was in the Gifted and Talented program in school. School stuff is generally pretty easy for me. I have a good memory, when I'm not fibro-sick, and I just naturally think in terms of educational stuff. I hate math, though. No matter how good I may be at it, it annoys the heck out of me.
21) You may or may not be aware of my general ignorance/disregard for sports, but either way the sport I like best is basketball. I used to want to be on the basketball team, before I, you know, got disabled. Basketball is more natural to me than any of the other sports (volleyball is the devil, just so you know), and I like to watch it too, because it actually makes sense to me. Except for when there's a big crowd. If I have breathing room, I'm good. Otherwise... I'm just not good with crowds.
22) Whatever my opinion on sports, it's also true that I'm generally attracted to either athletes or musicians. Why? Because those are the two types of people you can almost guarantee are passionate. I like passionate people. I am a passionate person. And athletes and musicians are deeply invested in what they do, which shows a deeply passionate disposition. I really, really like that.
23) I exercise every day. This may or may not be the remnants of #7, but I also really enjoy it. Exercise is good for thinking, and keeping yourself in shape. Because of the fibro, my exercise options are limited, so I stick to two things--exercise bike, which is good cardio but supports my body and therefore keeps the fibro happy, and yoga, which is calming, and which I have a fairly thorough knowledge of. I've been doing it since 6th grade, after all.
24) There are a lot of 'normal' things I don't know how to do. Part of this is the fibro, which keeps me from learning/relearning/practicing some of these tasks. Part of it is just laziness and disinterest. I'm an artist, yo, I don't have time for this other junk. The two main examples here are bike riding and swimming. The first, I have no clue about; the second, I can't do anymore due to fibro.
25) I like to take surveys and quizzes partially because of my interest in psychology, partially because I'm totally egocentric. I don't think I'm alone in this, luckily, because a lot of girls like this kind of thing. I just happen to be a little obsessed. My favorite is the Myers-Briggs test. My own profile is noted on my info page.
You know what? That did take some thinking, but it was fun and not too hard after all. If you guys would like, I might try another some day. I have a couple other things I already know I could tell you about. It's nice to be introspective once in a while.
BYEEEEE! I'll see you next time for a post on fashion.
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